Rani Mukerji on missing the National Award for Black, 'It hurt, but it taught me a lot’

As Rani Mukerji completes 30 years in Indian cinema, the actor looked back on her journey with rare honesty. 

Speaking at a special event in Mumbai with filmmaker and close friend Karan Johar, Rani opened up about one of the most painful moments of her career — losing the National Award for Black.

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‘It Broke My Father’s and Mother’s Hearts’

Recalling the moment, Rani admitted that not winning the National Award for Black deeply affected her family. “It broke my father’s heart, it broke my mum’s heart,” she said. Rani shared that she entered films at a young age at her mother’s insistence, and her early motivation was simple — to give her parents a better, happier life.

She explained that her dedication to work came from this responsibility, and films became a way for her to fulfil her dream of seeing her parents comfortable and proud. Missing out on the honour, despite her performance being widely praised, was therefore especially painful.

Finding Validation Beyond Awards

Rani revealed that fan mail played a crucial role in helping her regain confidence. Through letters from audiences, she realised that people believed in her work and expected more from her as an actor. This understanding shifted her focus.

She said her goal became making her audience happy and giving her best to every film and director, regardless of awards. Even without formal recognition, she continued to push herself creatively, choosing roles that challenged her and allowed her to grow as a performer.

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Why Losing the Award Changed Her Perspective

While admitting that the loss hurt, Rani said it ultimately helped her mature early in life. She explained that awards are about collective recognition and that sometimes, despite doing your best work, appreciation may not come your way.

Black went on to win the National Award for Best Feature Film in Hindi, while Amitabh Bachchan received the Best Actor honour. Rani finally won her first National Award in 2025 for Mrs Chatterjee vs Norway, closing a long, emotional chapter.

Up next, Rani will be seen in Mardaani 3, directed by Abhiraj Minwala, slated for a theatrical release on January 30.